Not Taking the Easy Road
|December 11, 2013||Posted by Sarah under Health & Wellness, Inspiration & Reflection|
It’s called the easy road for a reason…because it’s easy to navigate. I find myself on this road far too often. Not challenging myself and going with what I know I can accomplish instead of pushing myself to try something new or be uncomfortable.
These past few months have been tough for me. My health hasn’t been great and it’s been hard to stay positive. My nutrition has gone downhill and I’ve struggled with motivation in just getting off the couch, let alone pushing myself at the gym. Basically I’ve been taking the easy road to “just get by” everyday and it has turned into an evil cycle of depression which in turn does NOT help my health issues. Blech.
After fighting a fever for a few days last week, I decided that I can’t keep going with this cycle. Not only is it bad for me, but it’s not good for the people around me either. I’m no use to my husband just lying around like a lump on the couch. I’m not supporting my friends when they need me at the gym, during a race, or when facing difficult situations at home. I’m just pushing people away as I continue to not deal with my issues…that easy road sure is detrimental.
So this past weekend I forced myself to get up and tackle a few things around the house that I’ve been avoiding. That mountain of papers that has been piling up in the kitchen and the office…GONE. The guest room that looked like an explosion of clothes and suitcases…CLEANED. Both feel like a giant weight that has been lifted.
At the gym this week, I decided it’s finally time to get out of my comfort zone. I can’t do pull ups and I even avoid doing the band assisted ones during WODs because I have trouble with those. But on Monday, I decided to go for it. I’m not going to get better if I don’t practice. It’s going to suck and probably take me twice as long to finish, but I have to at least get off the easy road and TRY. So I attached a thick band to the bar and got ready for 3 sets of 20 pull ups. Surprisingly I got through the first 10 unbroken which gave me the confidence that I might be able to do this. It was HARD and by the last set I was only doing one at a time. I got through 15 on the last set and just couldn’t get another, but look at that…55 pull ups! I was one of the last people to finish the WOD, but my friends were cheering me on and I got through it. I could have taken the easy road and finished in half the time, but I’m SO glad I didn’t. I was huffing and puffing and my arms felt like jelly, but I felt AWESOME!
The rough and rocky road has clearly been hard to navigate, but it always makes me feel better than just plodding along on the easy road. It’s a constant battle for me, a constant reminder to get up and challenge myself. But I have to be stronger than my illness, I have to keep living my life and not let it get the best of me. Today I ordered this bracelet from Endorphin Warrior to wear as a constant reminder to never get back in that place and to get off the easy road…