A Thankful Birthday…
|March 20, 2014||Posted by Sarah under Lifestyle|
Today my mid-30s become a reality, but that reality is quite different from what I thought it would be. I can’t really pinpoint what I thought it would be, but I do know that I never thought 34 would be as much fun as it actually is.
When you are a kid, you always think of people who are 30+ as OLD and they no longer know how to have fun. Well I’m not sure what 30 year olds I met when I was younger, but it definitely wasn’t me! I never thought I would feel this young at my age. Aside from all the craptastic things that have been going on the past two months, I can honestly say this is the best I’ve ever felt. Both physically and emotionally…I’m the best I’ve ever been. Let me tell you why…
I’m finally comfortable with me. Looking back, I HATED my 20s. I had no idea who I was or what I wanted to do with my life. I was a flailing mess. I often think that a do-over of my 20s would be nice, but if I was really put back there, would I have a better handle on things? Probably not. I’d still be a hot mess of emotional baggage and self loathing trying to find my way. Blech…good riddance 20s, I’m glad I never have to see you again.
I am comfortable in my skin. I have always been the heavier girl. I’ve never been thin and I don’t ever remember a time that my thighs didn’t rub together. I remember being called “thunder thighs” by my crush in the 7th grade and being mortified even though I wasn’t quite sure what it meant. But even through years of ridicule for being the chubby girl, I never let it bother me or define me. I love my thick thighs because the give me strength. My big boobies are sensual and desired by men and women alike. And damn…my body is just too bootylicious for ya!
I am striving to be a healthier me. I didn’t start on this healthy living road until after I was 30. I was a smoker, drank heavily, dabbled in recreational drugs, ate very poorly and hardly exercised. You know…I was invincible. That obviously started taking a toll on my body and I knew this was not the way I wanted to continue to live my life. I am nowhere near perfect or the epitome of healthy living, but I do strive to be better. I’ve been 4+ years smoke free, I make healthier food choices, I exercise on a regular basis and I now know the importance of rest. Who would’ve thought that I could ever run a full marathon, 7 half marathons, 2 10-milers, 2 10Ks, & 6 5Ks?!? Plus I can lift way over 100# over my head and 225# off the ground?!?! AND all of those things happened after I was 30! Badass comin’ at ya!
I have found a strong core of people. Being an only child, I have always been a bit of a loner. I’m perfectly fine sitting home alone with a cat on my lap and watching bad TV. Crazy cat lady hasn’t been far off from my ambitions in life. However in the past few years I have found an amazingly wonderful group of people that have not only enhanced my life, but have made me want to be a better person. They have pushed me out of my comfort zone, challenged me, laughed with me, cried with me and have overall just made me want to be a better person. I have found compassion, love and humor through each and every person who I have the privilege to share my daily craziness with and for that I am forever thankful.
I have the BEST partner. Things always seem to come back to B around here, but really how could they not. He is my strength, my soulmate, my laughter and my love. We speak an unspoken language that is impossible to explain to anyone else. There is no one on the planet who I could possibly feel more comfortable around or share my deepest thoughts and secrets with. I am beyond lucky to have found my soulmate who stands by me through the worst and supports me in my crazy. I could never be the person I am today without that support and stability…my rock.
I know that things can only get better from here because I am motivated. I’m not perfect…I skip workouts, I have too many cocktails, I have a cupcake addiction and I have a love affair with cheese. BUT I’m always trying to be better and that’s the best I can do. I am thankful for all of the wonderful things in my life and I will never take that for granted.